A young nutrition expert in Manhattan identified as Tara Condell hanged herself in her West Village apartment after posting a suicide note online in which she apologised to her mother.
27-year-old Condell, from San Francisco was found dead with a cloth around her neck inside the bedroom of her home on West 10th Street around 4:30 p.m. Wednesday after police were called to the residence for a wellness check.
In addition to the note left on her website, Condell left another suicide note in a folder in her living room.
Condell who, according to her website, is a registered dietitian nutritionist specializing in general nutrition, weight management, gastrointestinal disease and diabetes care, apologized to her mother at the end of the note posted to her site, saying, “I’m really sorry mama.”
“I Hate The Word ‘Bye,’ But See You Later Maybe?” “I have written this note several times in my head for over a decade, and this one finally feels right. No edits, no overthinking.
I have accepted hope is nothing more than delayed disappointment, and I am just plain old-fashioned tired of feeling tired.”
“I realize I am undeserving of thinking this way because I truly have a great life on paper. I’m fortunate to eat meals most only imagine. I often travel freely without restriction.
I live alone in the second greatest American city (San Francisco, you’ll always have my heart). However, all these facets seem trivial to me.
“It’s the ultimate first world problem, I get it. I often felt detached while in a room full of my favorite people; I also felt absolutely nothing during what should have been the happiest and darkest times in my life.
“No single conversation or situation has led me to make this decision, so at what point do you metaphorically pull the trigger?” Condell wrote.
What is happening in this world?? Even people who seem to have perfect and normal lives take their lives, is it still depression or something else??
Please talk to someone when you feel down, there’s always a better option than suicide.
Depression is strange. Suicide is even stranger because one would think people who seem to have it all in life should not be depressed to the point of ending it all..
Since outside realities, relationships and possessions don’t give true comfort, the only solution may be to find solace inside our soul from the source of our creation.
Being a human being is a daunting everyday challenge. May God be the source of our comfort and strength in this world of adversity and unseen pains.
What do you think about this? Let’s hear from you. Do not forget to share with others. Thanks